I know that a list of all the crap cluttering my mind and life isn't a solution. So, on the advice of my husband, I'm meeting with a professional organizer tomorrow morning to get an estimate on some help getting my life in some sort of order.
I'm completely embarrassed to have someone come in and see all of my clutter and mess. I thought that I should clean it all up before she comes, but (a) that's unrealistic and (b) the whole point is to figure out how to keep up with things. If I do a stash-and-dash clean up, that doesn't help her to help me create realistic routines. And even more embarrassing than the state of the house is just the fact that I need professional help with this. I'm a GREAT organizer--I can create systems, purge ruthlessly, set up routines--as long as it's for someone else. For my own mess, I wander around in circles.
Is this normal? Are most people better at doing for others than they are doing for themselves? Why don't we use our talents to help ourselves? I'm a great cook, but do I make nice meals for my family? Um, not usually. I'm a very creative person with a HUGE stash of craft supplies, but how long has it been since I created anything? Forever. This is depressing me--why do I save the best of myself for other people? I need to learn to shine my light on myself and my immediate family rather than saving it for others.
Hopefully tomorrow the organizer will set me on the right path.
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I'm also trying to give the "best of me" to my family and myself. It's hard and I think it's because I get lazy. But the second a threat of company or other family or a different activity arises, the house is clean, a meal is prepared and I'm invigorated and ready to go.
ReplyDeleteMaybe I need an organizer...
How did it go with the organizer?
ReplyDeleteYou should never be embarrassed ... I had a friend come in to help me with my house and I spent the first two hours apologizing for my mess. She kept saying "your mess is not MY mess and I see it differently - please, no apologies"
I'm hoping she is able to smack you upside the head ... in just the right spot ... so that you can start to designate and delegate your time and moments to your family ... nothing else really matters!